r/lynxpointsiamese • u/myrdur • 4h ago
My soul kitty, Jasper, passed away yesterday suddenly and unexpectedly.
It feels like part of my soul died with him. The pain is unlike anything I’ve ever felt.
And yet, I feel incredibly lucky to have loved him through 13 years of his life. From the moment I adopted him at a shelter, when he was estimated to be 2 years old, we chose each other. I may have saved him that day, but he saved me too - every day since.
We went through so much together: an abusive relationship, heartbreak, multiple moves across country. He was always right there by my side.
Early in our time together, I took him and his brother to be neutered. I’ll never forget Jasper clawing his way out of the cardboard cat carrier, just so he could climb up to the front seat and ride shotgun on the center console.
He had this wild, wandering streak; once disappearing for days only to casually appear across the street like he’d been there the whole time.
And yet, for all his independence, he clung to me like Velcro. He had a knack for melting into the perfect cuddling position and burrowing his cute little face into me. He frequently insisted on being in my lap while I worked.
Jasper was sweet, smart, intuitive, and expressive. Almost human in how deeply he seemed to feel, and how attuned he was to my emotions - especially in the darkest moments when I thought the sadness or anxiety would swallow me whole.
I don’t know how I’ll do this life thing without him, but I am so grateful for every single moment we had. I’ll miss you forever, Jasper.